definella's sanctuary

Bakit di ko agad nakita?
Pag-ibig mo di agad napuna.
Tuloy ngayon nagsisisi,
Pag-ibig mo'y di na mahuli.

Ikaw ba'y napagod na?
Pagmamahal saki'y tinigil na?
Di na ba maibabalik?
Pagmamahal mo'y di na mauulit?

Kung maibabalik lang ang nakaraan,
Pagmamahal mo'y agad susunggaban.
Di na muli magaagam-agam
Pagkat ito'y akin ng inaasam.

Mensaheng ito iyo sanang mabasa
Pagkat sabihin sayo ng harapa'y di ko kaya.
Nadarama'y idinaan sa tula,
Mensahe nito'y sa puso nagmula.

Mahal na kita ngayon,
Maaari mo bang ibalik ang iyong nararamdaman noon?

I remember when i saw you with her,
You look terribly happy, no wonder
it's like the happiness i felt,
when you and me were together.

You brighten up my days,
Yet, you also darken my nights.
You make me laugh out loud,
Yet you pull my tears down my eyes.

Things have change,
and so are we.
Yesterday is part of the past,
and we could never get it back.

The laughter and tears will remain,
and will miss more of them,
I wish someday somehow,
you would still remember my name.

Time to pick up my self
and start a brand new life
We both have our own life now,
but you'll remain here in my heart.


Goodbye my almost lover,
Goodbye my hopeless dream.


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My unfinnised poem which i completed just a while ago (teka, alangan ako sa ingles ko,tama ba grammar ko?) Nakita ko kanina sa isa sa mga folder sa laptop ko, 4 paragraphs pa lang sya nun, bitin yung laman ng tula kaya dinagdagan ko ulet. Then post na :)

kasama ko nanay ko kanina habang naglalakad,
magsisimba kasi kami, pero may mga dinaanan
pa kami kaya naisipan naming maglakad.
then may nadaanan kaming tindahan, so lapit agad kami.
pagsilip ko sa tindero, napangiti ako.. sheeett! ang gwapo nya!
ganda ng smile, tapos ang puti pa ng balat!
na-starstruck agad ako, ang lufet ih..
pero nung tumayo na siya para pagbilhan kmi, my god! bading!!
kung pumilantik ang kamay at bewang, daig pa ko.
tsk! tsk! tsk! nanghinayang ako para sa kanya.
nabawasan na naman ng isang adonis ang mundo natin.
di naman ako against sa mga bading eh,
infact, may mga kaibigan pa nga akong bading.
pero nakakapanghinayang lang kasi kung pati mga gwapo sa earth,
mauubos! at magiging kafederasyon nila.
bakit ganun? parang sakit lang sila na nakakahawa.
yun nga lang mga lalaki ang tinatablahan, and w0rst mga gwapo pa!
panu na lang si adam lambert? sheeett! ang gwapo nya kapag naka 0nesided hair at walang eyeliner.
pero anung nangyari? nasayang yung biyaya niyang yun dahil sa traydor nyang hormones! (horm0nes nga ba?)

ok lang naman sakin dumami ang bading sa mundo.
pero sa bawat pagrami ng bading, kumuk0nti naman ang lalaki. unfair?!!

buti na lang hanggang ngayon, lalaki pa rin ang mga crush ko.
ahaha yung isa nga me gelpren pa.. dyahe! magbibreak din sila, wahaha


cute sana kaso bading


oh sya sya,
out na ko, maglalunch na kami eh.
salamat sa pagbasa :)

napanood nyo na siguro iyan noh?
year 2006 ata or 2007 yan nairelease eh.
pero ako, ngayon ko lang yan napanood.

boring kasi kaninang hapon.
andun lang ako sa kwarto ko, nagiinternet.
eh ang bagal ng net, may kachat pa naman ako.
ayun nag 0ut ako ng walang paalam sa kanila.
(sori naman, mabagal ang net eh)
then yun nga, boring talaga, as in to the highest level.
so bukas ulet ako ng laptop, saksak ng external hard drive sabay upo.

hanap hanap muna sa folder ng magandang panoorin.
(yung HD kasi storage ko yun ng mga movies na pinadownload ko sa tatay ko last year.
kaya naman nung binigay nya na sakin, ang dami talaga. magsasawa ka)

then yun nga, napili ko yung the illusionist.
ang ganda nya grabe, enjoy na enjoy akong panuorin.
may natutunan pa kong magic trick,
plano kong gawin yung trick na yun sa classmates ko next time :)

yung story niya is about sa isang love story ng magician,
si EISENHEIM also known as the illusionist.
at infairness ah, nakukyutan ko siya,
ngayon lang ako nakyutan sa isang lalaking may balbas at bigote.

so yun nga, ang story is nung bata pa yung magician nahiwalay sya sa
childhood sweetheart nya.
then nagkita ulet sila after long long years,
yun nga lang nalaman nyang engage na yung babae sa isang panget na prinsipe,
(panget talaga kasi sya sa paningin ko eh haha)
then naisipan nilang magtanan para matakbuhan yung panget na yun.
pero takot si babae kasi hahanapin daw sila ni panget at papatayin,
pero dahil nga matalino tong si EISENHEIM ko (LOL)
nakaisip siyang paraan kung papano sila tatakas ng di mahahalata,
dinaan nya sa magic, parang mystery case,
may mga logic yung bawat step nya.
as in napabilib talaga ako, nauto ako sa takbo ng istorya.

sa kalagitnaan ng istorya,
namatay si babae. at si EISENHEIM naman eh patuloy lang sa pagmamagic sa entablado.
nagagawa nyang palitawin ang imahe ng isang buhay na tao sa anyong usok,
at pwedeng makausap yung imahe na yun.
hangang sa imahe na ni babae ang pinalitaw nya.
tapos.. tapos..



haha panoorin nyo na lang.promise mag eenjoy kayo :)

i closed my eyes, and i see no light
darkness filled my sight,
i can’t see nor hear anythin’
it’s as if i was turned into blind and deaf.

im afraid of the dark,
but i just cant stop my eyes from closing
it has the urge to shut down,
and i just cant do anything but to let it happen.

in the darkness, i feel so alone,
weak and literary scared.
i feel i would break down in any minute
but im fighting everyting.. for one thing.

i made a deal with a black witch,
and that is the reason why im doing this.
im letting myself to face my biggest fear,
in exchange of giving my mom a chance to live.

my mom is suffering from an unknown disease,
and the only cure will be found in the darkness
a golden leaves with a diamond shape,
is the solution for her sick.

the black witch helped me to get in the said darkness,
giving me 24 hours to look for the said leaves,
and if i wont find the cure within 24 hours,
she’ll take my life as an exchange.

i slowly walk forward,
taking time to adjust my eyes from darkness
i cant see anything, and cant hear either.
no voice came out from my mouth no matter how i shout.

i starting to loose my hope,
starting to give up, and stop.
when suddenly the beautiful face
of my mom appear in my mind.
oh god, i cant afford to stop, not now.
its between life of my mom and mine.

so i stand up, i ran as fast as i can,
not caring where im going,
i ran fast even if i cant see anything.
i trust my feet, i know this will lead me to something,
something i was looking for.

i looked down on my wrist, and check the time.
i only got 43minutes more, my hope are still up.
i wont give up, i cant loose this deal.
i have to win.

when suddenly i saw a small light,
i began to smile and ran so fast,
i didnt notice i already conquered my fear,
i am not afraid of the dark anymore.

i am close to the light when suddenly
my feet bump on a big rock,
i fell on my feet and i felt the pain,
i touch my knee and my hands became wet.
a blood!! my knees are bleeding oh god!

i check my time, and i only got 3minutes,
i have to stand up, i have to get the golden leaves.
but my legs are to weak now,
my legs are betraying me, i started to cry.

then suddenly i heared a voice,
i heared the black witch! she was laughing!
i know whats going to happen next if i wont force myself.
i closed my eyes, then my hormones start kickin’ again.

i now have the strenght to stand up again,
i was mad, too mad. i can no longer feel any pain.
i was too numb to feel anything now,
i am too busy running my way to the light.

the bitch i mean the witch start counting down
she laughs each number she’s droppin down.
“your soul will be mine in a few seconds!!!”
then she laughs again like hell i could define.

five.. four.. and im still running..
three.. two.. i am close now.
one..!!!




the darkness fade..
*the which laugh*



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“ella!! ella! wake up!
you’ll be late to school honey..”
i start to open my eyes
and saw the beautiful face of my mom.

“mom, you are healed! you are healed!”
i grin and hugged her so tight,
she pushed me away with a confusing eyes,
“honey, what are you talkin about, im not sick
now go to bathroom and take a shower, ok”
then she kissed me on the forehead and leave.

“so it was all just a dream??”
i murmured to myself..
and enter the bathroom.